I decided to participate from home via the livestream (which ended up not working for me, but no big surprise there because that has been the story between me and hi-tech for years now).
But for this reason or another, I only ended up being able sit down for virtual participation at around 11 PM.
The authentic Jewish approach is intend all the good things l'katchilah (from the outset), but b'dieved? Better late than never. Seriously.
So I started out saying Tikkun Haklali with kavanah, but there were loud boisterous offspring around and my kavanah ended up zonked.
What was interesting was that my youngest (age 4) had a deep barking cough that got pretty bad at night the past couple of nights, and he'd been coughing a lot...until I was a perek or two into Tikkun Haklali (with the intention to join my recitation of Tikkun Haklali to the general one being said at the mass prayer gathering).
His coughing stopped at that point and didn't return that night.
Huh, I said thoughtfully.
His cough didn't return until the next afternoon and then it went away again and tonight, he has been sleeping peacefully -- no coughing.
It's also worth noting that this child has had a tendency for coughing since he was born. When he starts coughing, it can just go on for weeks and nothing -- not herbs, oils, vaporizers, cough syrup, nothing -- can ease the coughing.
(The only thing that ever worked was saying once a day for several days in a row Tehillim 119 according to his full name, using the method described in this post. )
But now the terrible night coughing just stopped -- and stopped at the moment described above.
Anyway, just wanted to share that.
I don't believe in coincidences.
And you don't need to be perfect in order to awaken Heavenly Compassion.
You just have to try.
(Plus, it helps if you join your own imperfect prayer to the sincere prayer of thousands of dedicated Jews praying in a profoundly holy place.)
It's all good.